I am damn freaking stress now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cant tolerate anymore... I know I must face it, but I'm escaping it now. What am I doing? I feel I'm so different compare to the real me. I know I'm the only person who can help myself, I always promised myself I must face it today, but I feel damn suffer and lost when I facing it. I hate myself!!!!! I very very very very very scared..... I feel like crying now, Can I?